Sometimes you drink the wine and other times you stomp the grapes. Sorry to hear your hurting. I am cashing it in as well. Tired of running in pain. It's been hard to break the all or nothing mentality the past couple years. I'll be 46 tomorrow. Up to a few years ago, a few days off and things generally returned to normal. I feel like I'm trying to drop a 442 into a volkswagen body. It's just not working.